“Maybe there is a beast… maybe it’s only us.” – 3.5/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: shiny conchs, flies, broken glasses, fruit, fires, pig heads, smoke and a set of rules.

I read this for the first time when I was in seventh grade and I remember thinking “what the hell did I just read?”. I’ve been thinking about it because more than a decade has passed and I forgot most of the story. It’s unfair to rate a book like this without giving it a fair shot, so I thought I should read it again now that I’m older. Also, I never saw the movie so I had almost zero memories of what the story was about. So… I finally picked it up.

The story is about a group of boys who gets stuck on a deserted island. They have no adults around, so they had to organize themselves to find food, build shelters and create smoke to signal their presence in case a boat passes by the island. Needless to say that things go south very easily when they understand how free they are. Their made up society quickly falls apart and savagery takes place instead.

So my thoughts after adult Neide read this are: I was honestly surprised to find out that my experience wasn’t that much better compared with the first time I read the book. Sure, I understood things on a different level now, but I completely understand why young Neide didn’t like the book as much. It’s not really about the story, but how slow paced and descriptive it is. I got bored so many times that at some point I just wanted the book to be over. I do appreciate the story and I honestly really liked the concept and the meaning behind it: it’s almost a reminder of how fragile our society and rules we live by are. It’s a very smart approach to the concept of utopia, society and the true nature of humanity. I still think it’s worth picking it because it is a memorable book, but if you don’t like very descriptive books, you may find this one a bit dreadful and slow paced.

xoxo, Neide

“Attraction isn’t something that only happens once, with one person. It’s part of what drives humans. Our attraction to each other, to art, to food, to entertainment. Attraction is fun. So when you decide to commit to someone, you aren’t saying, ‘I promise I’ll never be attracted to anyone else.’ You’re saying, ‘I promise to commit to you, despite my potential future attraction to other people.’” I look at Clara. “Relationships are hard for that very reason. Your body and your heart don’t stop finding the beauty and the attraction in other people simply because you’ve made a commitment to one person. If you ever find yourself in a situation where you’re drawn to someone else, it’s up to you to remove yourself from that situation before it becomes too hard to fight.” – 4.5/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: suckers, watermelon jolly ranchers, group projects, nosy neighbours, free movie tickets, Starbucks coffee, the colour orange, secret letters, hotel rooms, birthday boards, films, cute babies and promposals.

The queen Colleen has done it again. This is such a good book! I’ve learned by now that Colleen’s books never disappoint me, so I just grab them and start reading. She always creates such unique stories with the craziest elements, and this one was no exception.

I didn’t know what the book was about when I picked it up and I decided to keep it that way because I knew there were going to be a lot of surprises and twists along the way. And I was right, the story was an emotional rollercoaster from beginning to end. The only things you should know if you decide to pick this up is that it follows the relationship between Morgan and her teenage daughter, Clara. Their POV alternates between chapters, so you’ll know what each one of them is thinking and feeling. Clara feels like her mother is always predictable and boring, and she wants to be different than her. Meanwhile, Morgan is just trying to prevent her daughter to make the same mistakes she did when she was younger, which led her to never pursue her dreams to take care of her family. And in Colleen’s old fashion, something very tragic happens and we get a lot of surprises… and that’s all you need to know 🙂

And yes, there is romance here! In fact, both of them have their own romance story, which makes the book even more special. The story is very emotional, so keep tissues near you while you read because you will need them. The progression and pacing were great, the characters were fantastic – especially the grandpa – and the romances were super cute. And to top it all off, the ending was the sweetest thing ever!

My only negative point – and the reason why I’m giving it 4.5 instead of 5 stars – was Clara’s behaviour. I know she was going through a lot, but I just can’t get over what she did to the poor boy. But I don’t know… maybe I’m being insensitive, so take my opinion with a grain of salt!

I really loved this book and I highly recommend it if you like dramatic romances and if you are a fan of the author’s previous work. It’s completely worth it!

xoxo, Neide

“Everything will definitely be alright” – 5/5 stars!

Attention! This series contains: unbreakable spells, penguin slides, cameras, cute handmade outfits, pink wands, high tech gadgets, yummy cakes, ghosts, stuffed bears, festivals, kimonos, sakura season and a set of nineteen magical cards.

*Review of the original 12 volumes*

*There will be some spoilers and comparisons to the anime throughout the review! Proceed with caution!*

I can’t even express how much I love this series. I watched the anime version of Cardcaptor Sakura when I was younger and it easily became my favorite anime of all time. Recently I found that it was available on Netflix and I decided to watch it for fun, but all my childhood memories came to life stronger than ever. This basically triggered in me a huge desire to read the original manga. I’m very happy to say that my first experience reading manga was very positive and I became even more in love with the story.

In case you don’t know what the story is about, it follows an elementary student named Sakura Kinomoto who accidentally sets free a set of magical cards – each one with it’s only special power and personality – that were guarded by Cerberos. The cards are running free and are causing chaos, so now she is responsible to get them all back and seal them again. With the help of Kero (Cerberus) and her best friend Tomoyo, she begins her mission to bring peace again to her town, Tomoeda.

It was interesting to see that there are a lot of differences between the manga and the anime, but I still think the core of the story was respected and kept. In the manga series we only have nineteen cards, while in the anime we have fifty-two (plus the seal card that only appears in the first Cardcaptor Sakura movie, so fifty-three)! Most of the characters are present in the original work, but there is no mention of Meilin or Wei – contrary to the anime -, so Syaoran travels and lives alone in Japan.

For me, Sakura is one of the best female main characters ever. She was such a huge inspiration to me when I watched the series for the first time, reminding me to always do my best and to be kind to everyone. There were times she was afraid, but that never stopped her from catching the cards and helping her friends. A true queen! Then you have Tomoyo, Sakura’s best friend and cousin… and she is also in love with her. I’m not even going to get started on the amount of incest relationships going on here between cousins because we don’t have an entire day, but I will say I feel bad for the poor girl. She is perfectly okay with Sakura’s love interests, because the most important thing for Tomoyo is her happiness. It was kind of sad that Tomoyo didn’t have her own shot at love, at least with another character. And as a side note, I wish I knew what happened to Tomoyo’s dad, but I know the authors keep it a secret on purpose!

I also found the manga version a little bit more “shocking” than the anime version. They definitely toned down on the animated series when it comes to relationships, because the manga version got crazy sometimes! There are not one, but TWO relationships between adults and elementary students! This was really shocking to see, and even though the first volume came out in 1996 and times were different back then, I still wish the kids kept the relationships within their peers. But what I REALLY wish happened was a bigger development in Touya and Yuki’s relationship! They’re absolutely perfect for each other and I wish they would develop more of their love story here, but to be honest there are not a lot of differences in the anime.

Now the main romance…. where do I even start? Are there even words to describe how perfect it is? This is a true slow burning, innocent and the sweetest romance ever… and all started from rivalry. Things are confusing at first because not only do they start their relationship as rivals on capturing the Clow Cards, but also when it comes to grabbing Yukito’s attention. They are both attracted to him, so the romance between them two only starts to blossom later on, on Syaoran’s side – because Sakura is completely clueless and it’s hilarious! We are presented with a lot of sweet and innocent moments between them, and their romance was definitely one of my favorite things of the manga.

I’m also glad that we get a lot of explanations that are never mentioned in the anime series. For example, we get to know the reason why Sakura feels all HANYAN around Yukito and Mizuki, while Syaoran is only attracted to Yukito. And there is also a major plot twist involving Sakura’s dad that I would never have expected!

I had to take a moment and wonder why I have such a strong love for this series. Sure, I watched the anime when I was younger so it’s natural I have a soft spot for it, but this never happened with any other tv show I watched when I was a kid. I really thought about it, and I realized that the manga is full of a lot of my favorite tropes. There is a strong female heroine who is a regular girl just trying to do her best; there is a slow burn cute romance that started from rivalry; there are a lot of references to yummy food and cakes; there are so many real friendships; there are special, inspiring outfits handmade just to catch the cards; the innocence of it all; and of course… Sakura’s magic is any little girl’s dream.

I swear I could talk about this series forever. I know I’m going to read and reread this for a very long time because I’m so in love with it. And now it’s time for Clear Arc! I confess I’m holding back a bit because the series is not finished yet! I know I will want to finish it in one sitting, so while I wait… I’ll just rewatch the anime 😉

xoxo, Neide

“Look around. Look at everyone else,” Shaila whispered into the huddle. “They wish they were us.” – 2/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: lost letters, red headbands, courage tests, text messages, Jell-O shots, diamond studs, raw cookie dough, preppy kids and true friendships.

I genuinely thought this would be a five star read, but the truth is that I almost DNF this book… three times! The characters were really annoying and I often wondered why I was wasting my time reading this book. I made an effort and I still finished it, not because I ended up liking the book – because I didn’t – but because I wanted to give it a fair opportunity. My main issues with this book were:

1. I predicted who murdered Shaila about halfway through the book – and I was right;
2. The only character I liked was Shaila. Yes, the most likeable person in this book was dead… I think that says a lot. 
3. I tried to feel some sort of empathy for Jill but it just didn’t happen. Her problems felt too futile and privileged for me to feel sorry for her.
4. I didn’t like the “challenges” that they were submitted to. It was all just stupid and too much in so many different ways.
5. I didn’t understand why Graham did what he did the night Shaila was murdered – I won’t say too much because I don’t want to spoil anything, but if you already read the book you’ll probably know what I mean by this.

On a more positive note, I will say the book is realistic. I can see how something like this could happen in real life – especially the tests to enter an elitist group and the sexism. And I applaud who made the cover because it was absolutely beautiful!

Overall, it was boring and the chapters felt neverending! I usually don’t write such negative reviews but I’m just disappointed with this. I thought this would be right up my alley and I would love it, but it just wasn’t that good in my opinion.

xoxo, Neide

“Even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, I would still plant my apple tree.” – 4.25/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: fireworks, IKEA furniture, opening houses, interviews, bank robbers, tulips, pizza, rabbit heads, stockholmers, suicide attempts, a bowl of limes and the worst hostages ever.

I’m not even going to waste my time trying to explain what this book is all about, because I wouldn’t even know where to start. This is such a weird book, but not in the bad sense. If you asked me what this book is really about, my only answer would be exactly: anxious people. But to not be so cryptical, I will say it all starts with a bank robber taking hostages at an open house showing. But trust me, that’s not even the important part, it’s so much more than that! My advice for you would be to go into the book without knowing too much about it. Just enjoy the experience… you’ll be in for a treat! There are a lot of twists and turns, and also a lot of surprises that will knock your socks off.

Fredrik Backman is one of those authors who has a very specific style of writing, and it definitely shows in this book. So if you like his work, it is most likely that you will like this book. I think he is an amazing author and if you never read anything from him before, you should definitely give him an opportunity.

I have to highlight the humour of it all, which is balanced perfectly with more serious topics. I laughed so many times throughout the book because of the characters and dialogs. The group of characters was hilarious and I swear I felt the frustration of the poor police officer who was trying to interview all the hostages. It’s weird how a book can both warm and break your heart.

It’s a book that reminds us that we are all human and we all have struggles and make mistakes, and that is okay. You can sense a very strong feeling for human connection and forgiveness with this book. I was very happy to see how everything came together so nicely and the surprising ending. If this was a real story, I would completely restore my faith in humanity.

I will say I lost some interest as the book progressed, but nothing too serious. I really did enjoy the book and I would still recommend it to everyone I know. I think the worst thing you can think about this book is that it’s interesting, and that’s saying a lot in my opinion.

xoxo, Neide

“I forget things—I know that—but I’m not mad. Not yet. And I’m sick of being treated as if I am. I’m tired of the sympathetic smiles and the little pats people give you when you get things confused, and I’m bloody fed up with everyone deferring to Helen rather than listening to what I have to say.” – 4.75/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: dementia, suitcases, compact mirrors, peach cans, zucchinis, colorful birds, sticky notes, red lipstick, antiques, a crazy woman and a lot of secrets to unfold.

Wow, that was… unexpected. Unexpectedly amazing. I started this book without even knowing what it was about and I’m so happy I decided to read it. It’s one of those books I know I will never forget – no pun intended, I promise.

What makes this book so interesting is that it’s not only a mystery book with two different timelines, but the person who is trying to decipher it is a woman suffering with dementia. So on one side you want to unfold the mystery, but on the other side you get a good glimpse of what it is like to suffer from such a horrible disease. I really want to approach each thing separately because there’s so much I want to talk about.

Let’s start with our main character and her memory problems. I’m not going to lie, it was heartbreaking to watch Maud so closely and be a part of her daily life. Maybe it’s because I have someone in my life that suffers from the same condition, but Maud’s story hit me like a ton of bricks. And I cannot stress this enough, but I was so surprised with the representation because it’s so accurate! I have to applaud the author because it’s more than obvious she put in a lot of effort to put together this amazing, complex character. It was mind blowing to me how she was able to put together this experience for the reader. From the moment you get into the book, you know as much as Maud. And that’s exactly the problem. Maybe Maud knows about what happened to Elizabeth or maybe she doesn’t… you only know what Maud knows. The story is told in first person and it was so well made that you can only understand what happened in the past with the intervention of secondary characters like her daughter, police officers and her carers. For example, when Maud said she wanted to make a toast because she hadn’t eaten all day, the carer would remind her she ate almost an entire loaf of bread that same day because she won’t stop eating. It’s crazy, but so good! So don’t worry if you feel confused or you don’t understand what’s going on at first… just keep going, I promise it’s worth it. It’s meant to be confusing and Maud is supposed to be unreliable.

Now the mystery the book revolves around. I honestly couldn’t even think of how this book could possibly end. I often wondered throughout the book if I could really trust Maud and her memory. I think my main questions throughout this book were “is Elizabeth really missing?”, “is she dead?”, and also “did her son do something to her?”. This mystery kept me entertained until the end! And I was very satisfied with the ending, things really do come full circle!

On a smaller note, I also appreciate the little illustrations presented before the beginning of each chapter. Small details like this add something special to the book.

I have to admit this book took me by surprise. I never thought this would end the way it did and I kept guessing what was going on until the very end. I recently found out this has a movie adaptation and I’m very curious about it, but I don’t know if I have the courage to watch it to be honest! The book was very well executed, it’s very interesting, the pace is great and I can’t recommend it enough.

xoxo, Neide

“Just because you don’t see something doesn’t mean it isn’t there. Some of the most wonderful things in the world are invisible. Trusting in invisible things makes them more powerful and wondrous.” – 3.25/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: paper birds, elders, goat milk, abandoned babies, swamp monsters, volcanoes, tiny dragons, sycamore trees, boots, chatty crows, sorrow, birthmarks, tiger hearts, moonlight and star children.

I saw this book EVERYWHERE and everyone seems to love it, so I wanted to see what it was all about. And even though I liked the book overall, I still feel conflicted. On one side, I thought the story was magical and it made me dream, because it’s told like a fairytale and you get completely immersed in this fictional world. It is a very atmospheric book because the author does an amazing job on awakening your senses – I swear I could almost hear the birds chirping, smell the woods and feel the magic from the moon.

But on the other side, I found the pacing very slow at times and there were so many “important” points of view that at some point the story felt like too much. You have the witch, Luna, Luna’s mother, the boy who was an ex-elder, the “sorrow woman” and even other characters with smaller roles – like the creatures and the boy’s uncle. It was just too much. I personally think the core of the story is really good, but there were too many things that were added to the story that weren’t necessary. Maybe if the story was focused only on the three main points of view – the witch’s, Luna’s and the boy’s – and was kept simple, it would show it’s true beauty. The unnecessary complexity of the story was one my major down points for this book.

The characters were adorable, and I promise you will fall in love with a lot of them! I loved how there were two magical creatures added to the mix: not only do we get Fyrian – a tiny, adorable dragon -, but we also get Glerk – a swamp monster who loves poetry. And the witch was the sweetest woman with the kindest heart.. and the magical grandmother everyone wants in their lives. She was probably my favorite character!

It’s definitely a story that makes you dream and takes you to a magical place. It’s targeted as middle grade, but it’s really a beautiful story for every age. It wasn’t the best book ever, but hey, it was still pretty cute. Maybe I should consider reading more middle grade books?

xoxo, Neide

“Sometimes, son,” my father said, prying my fingers free, “you have to help the heroes along.” – 3.5/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: chases, car crashes, steel, superpowers, explosions, tensors, bandages, intercommunications, “sparks”, bad metaphors, illusions, weapons, the power of fear, Epics and the Reckoners.

I have never read a superhero kind of book before, and that’s because I’m not naturally drawn to this theme. I started this book because a friend of mine wanted me to read it but it’s really not my thing, and unfortunately this reflects on my rating. When I started the book I wanted to dive in with an open mind and I’m glad I did. It’s truly an amazing story and I completely understand the hype around Brandon Sanderson books – I never read other books by him, but I assume they are written in a similar way.

I said that this is a superhero book, but that’s not exactly the truth. Even though I stand for what I categorized the book, this is not your typical superhero-saves-the-world kind of book. They are evil and they control people through violence to get what they want. In this dystopian world, these superheroes are called Epics, who got superpowers through a weird phenomenon that happened on Earth named Calamity. Like I said, after getting their superpowers, Epics became obsessed with power and they started to kill everyone who stood in their way, instead of saving the world like superheroes usually do. This story starts when David’s father gets killed by Steelheart, one of the most powerful Epics ever known. Everyone thinks Steelheart has no weaknesses, but David saw him bleeding that day – something no one has ever seen before. David escapes alive and keeps this huge secret with him, hoping one day he would get his revenge by killing the Epic who killed his father. He dedicated most of his life to studying Epics and he believes his knowledge could help “The Reckoners” – an assassins group who tries to kill Epics who abuse their power.

I can completely understand why this book is so popular. The world is very well built, the character development is good, the pacing is great and there are a lot of action scenes that make the story interesting. I also liked the characters, especially David. He was a very likeable character to my eyes and he didn’t sound childish for his eighteen years. I really liked his personality and his weird metaphors! I also thought it was really funny how the author switched the cursed words to “sparks” and “slontze”, but it got to the point where it started to sound kind of goofy!

There was a cute romance between David and one of “The Reckoners”, but nothing over the top which I appreciate when it comes to books with strong themes. It was very well made, and it didn’t feel like an instalove romance at all. 

The ending is very good and it makes you wonder what will happen in the second book. I have to say I was really impressed with some of the secrets that were unfolding and developments in general. I had my suspicions about some of the things that were revealed later, but some of them were a huge surprise! There are so many twists and turns that you will never feel bored while reading this.

At this point I’m not sure if I’ll continue the series because I have mixed feelings. I’m still not very interested in superheroes, but I’m not completely ruling it out for now because now I feel invested in the story. The truth is that it is a really good book, I’m just not a fan of superhero stories.

xoxo, Neide

“So I told them the truth: the hours are terrible, the pay is terrible, the conditions are terrible; you’re underappreciated, unsupported, disrespected and frequently physically endangered. But there’s no better job in the world.” – 3.5/5 stars!

Attention! This book contains: hospital wards, placentas, cocoons, surgeries, baby deliveries, crocs, bodily fluids, scrubs, sleepless nights, and life and deaths decisions.

This is Going to Hurt is a nonfiction book about the daily life of the at-the-time doctor, Adam Kay – who is also the author of the book. It is written in small diary entries which makes it very easy to read, and I can honestly tell you it was an absolute rollercoaster. I think it’s the first time I experienced so many strong, different feelings while reading a book. I was laughing out loud in one entry and then I was absolutely disgusted in the next one, and then I was balling my eyes out in the next one after that!

What makes this book so great is that it gives you a good insight of what is like to be a doctor and what they go through daily. I don’t work in the health area, so it was a great way for me to understand what healthcare professionals go through on a daily basis. And don’t worry, even though there are some medical terms here and there that are not common, he explains them all so you can keep up with the stories. 

I loved Adam’s sense of humour and I really appreciate his honesty in this book. As an obstetrician/gynecologist, he dealt a lot with child births and people who shoved objects up in their vaginas, and it was hysterical. He also shared in the book a few moments where he was talking to his colleagues… and I lost it when I read the “cocoon” entry! And unfortunately, he also experienced a few deaths which he talks about in the book as well. Like he says, even though he was overworked, constantly tired and underpaid, he still describes it as the best job in the world. He talks about a high you feel after helping someone and seeing that all the efforts are paid off, and can understand what he means.

But even though the book talks about the doctor’s daily lives, it has a bigger message behind it. This book is a plea to the british government to not take doctors for granted, to not disrespect them and to take in consideration what they go through. Not only do they sacrifice their time, money, relationships and energy, but according to Adam they don’t even get psychological support if they need to. They go through a lot of losses and difficult situations that could really mess up their mental health, and they have to go to work the next day like nothing ever happened. They still do it, not for the money but because they want to help others. I’m not saying all doctors are like this, but I can see this being a reality for a lot of them. And I know this book is focused only on doctors, but there are so many other professionals in the health area that go through similar situations like the long shifts, the low income and stress. I have SO much respect for these people and what they do everyday to help others.I think the book is very well accomplished in showing the good, the bad and the ugly of the job.

I think it’s a must read for anyone who wants to become a doctor/nurse, because you’ll get a good idea of what awaits you. But even if you’re not, I still think it’s an important read.

xoxo, Neide