My fear of big books

Hi. My name is Neide, I’m twenty five years old and I’m afraid of big books. Big books can be scary and intimidating to pick up if you are used to reading small to medium size books. Maybe you are like me and you are interested in reading some big books because you think they look cool or interesting, but when you look at them you think “well… maybe another day”. That’s how I feel, but at least I know I’m not alone in this because it’s actually a very common feeling amongst readers.

So what is my definition of a big book? Each person has their own idea of what is too much, but for me personally a big book has at least five hundred pages. So why don’t I pick books like this more often? Well, in a nutshell: they look intimidating and I get bored easily. I know some people like big books because they like the experience of spending a lot of time in a specific world, but I feel exactly the opposite. I have a hard time leaving books unfinished if I’m not enjoying them – I’m trying to fight that too, but that’s a topic for another day -, so when I get tired of reading the same book it’s difficult for me to keep myself motivated to continue reading and finish the book.

And yes, I’ve accumulated a bunch of big books that I’m actually interested in reading, but they just sit on my shelves and I never touch them. Below are some examples of big books I really want to read but never picked up – just keep in mind that I have the portuguese editions of each book so that’s why the covers and titles are different, but I’m still going to refer below the original titles.

  1. The Host (A Nómada) – Stephanie Meyer (836 pages)
  2. The Starless Sea (Um Mar Sem Estrelas)  – Erin Morgenstern (528 pages)
  3. The Good Daughter (A Boa Filha) – Karin Slaughter (701 pages)
  4. Imaginary Friend (Amigo Imaginário) – Stephen Chbosky (864 pages)
  5. Pet Sematary (Samitério de Animais) – Stephen King (464 pages)
  6. El Bosque Sabe Tu Nombre (As Filhas da Floresta) – Alaitz Leceaga (624 pages)

You have to admit these books look really good! Stephen King’s Pet Sematary doesn’t reach the five hundred pages mark, but I still decided to include it in this bunch just because it’s not far from being a big book. But the title of champion of big books goes to Stephen Chbosky’s Imaginary Friend, which has eight hundred and sixty four pages! If this is not intimidating, I don’t know what is.

So… this needs to stop. At the beginning of this year I decided to face this fear of mine and finally pick up some big books. I really want to read these until the end of the year and I will do my best to keep my word, even though I know it is going to be tough. The good news is that I usually end up happy for giving a chance to books like this because I know afterwards they were worth the effort. I’m going to practice what I preach, so I decided my goal for August is to read the champion of book pages, Imaginary Friend. I know I will probably struggle, but I will do my best to finish it – yikes, wish me luck!

If you have these first world problems like me, please know you are not alone! I hope this encourages you in any way to get out of your comfort zone. Be brave, grab that book that is waiting for you and you will (probably) not regret it.

Stay healthy and wash your hands!

xoxo, Neide

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