“I don’t want to be afraid of you anymore. I don’t want to be afraid of me. I see how hard you’ve tried in the face of everything. I know how difficult it’s been. And… I love you. I want to break the cycle. For me. And I’m going to be okay. I’m going to be great.” – 5/5 stars!
Attention! This book contains: coffee shops, magic chocolate bars, hurtful friends, cute cats, old crushed and eating disorders.
This book really hit home.
As someone who has struggled with being overweight most of my life, this book touched me. Fortunately I didn’t struggle with eating disorders like the main character does, but I definitely identified myself with Mindy in a lot of ways.
This story is about a girl who is overweight and struggles with eating. In front of her family and friends she tries not to eat, but when she’s alone she eats until she feels sick. She is also criticized for not eating regularly and people are constantly making comments while she’s eating. She is very depressed and she wishes she could change the way she is, but she feels stuck. One day, she goes to the store to grab some things she needs and she picks up a chocolate bar she never heard about. Turns out the chocolate bar is magical and it takes her back to when she was about 12 years old. In those flashbacks, she revives some moments with her parents and friends and she starts to understand where her disorder began.
I honestly loved this book so much. It’s been a while since a book made me this emotional! Mindy is a very relatable character, and watching her deal with depression and food broke my heart. It’s a book not only about self acceptance, but also self love!
I also really appreciate the representation of hurtful close friends – even if they have good intentions – because it’s not something that’s talked about often.
The art and the colour palette were beautiful, and the drawings were perfectly linked to the story making it very easy to understand. I would definitely grab more graphic novels from this author!
If you are considering picking this up, please keep in mind that there are trigger warnings for eating disorders, body dysmorphia, depression and body shaming.
I honestly think this is such an important book for young readers! It is very touching, personal, relatable and will probably make you cry. Definitely worth it!
A big thank you to NetGalley and Boom! Box Paperbacks for the free ARC in exchange for an honest review!